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06

Apr

7 Things that my family does that make me bang m head

7 Things Your Family Does to Make You Want to Bang Your Head 

Slide the Blame: 

I find that whenever someone is ever in trouble with anyone in the family, especially when their up against the parental figure, they always end their excuse or reason with an offhand sentence that leaves them out of hot water and you into the boiling pot, “Well I can’t clean the kitchen because (name) never emptied the dishwasher”, bam slid the blame and got out of their. You are left with the aftermath of your parents and the spiel that is sure to come.

The Cons of the Responsible Child:

Being the responsible child enables you to do more things then your siblings because they trust you but the biggest con would have to be when your sibling decides to not do any of their chores, clean after themselves, or take responsibility for their own life messes. They become so irresponsible to your parents that they add their workload onto you because you never let them down. Well if you are the oldest cherish the moment you leave the house because they will be taking over the work! Muahaha! Revengeful karma!

You Might Have to go as Far as Marking Your Territory:

The reason it it call “your room” seems logical to you but it doesn’t to your family, they call it the “free stuff room” because they can take stuff and never return it. For a family what is left around that is not yours is up for grabs and you’ll end up finding your favorite t-shirt in their hamper while your doing their laundry! People signs do not work and only one thing will a lock with no spare keys.

Silence is Not in Their Vocabulary:

No matter where you are in the house you always here someone else, even if your the first person in the room, therefore your territory and your choice of channel or type of music, but your family decides to sit down and talk on the phone or make noise in the vicinity leaving the point of being there pointless because you can’t here anything.

And being  respectable doesn’t came back at you. when you want to listen to something you put your head phones on but everyone else in your family decides to misplace theirs at the time they want to listen to music and so they play it loud while your trying to listen to the TV or read, etc .

Your Not Allowed to Do Something But Your Parents Are

Obviously parents are allowed the right to tell you what you are allowed to do and not do because they want to protect you and blah, blah,blah. But it comes down to those small things that drive you insane like you’re not allowed to leave one thing left somewhere other then your room but you see them run through the house flinging their stuff everywhere, or not allowing you to do something but then, one week later, you see them doing something that makes them the hypocrite they are and most annoying part is that they are your parents and you can’t backtalk them. Remember once you have your own home and they come over it is revenge time!

Caution Females May Bite:

Living with the female species in a house is a dangerous area and should be tread cautiously. Living with your Mother and your sister involves a lot of listening since if your not an emotional wreck all the time and they are, living in a house where someone is always pms-ing gets tiring. And since their your family you try to help them with their problems but nope they don’t want your help want to do it all by themselves even though they just spent the last hours bawling beside yelling, “what am I supposed to so?!”. I’m sorry I didn’t know it was a rhetorical question! … I now understand why the male population doesn’t understand females, they make everything so complicated, this coming from me a female.

Danger Hazard Males in Proximity:

The most dangerous male of all inhales all the food in the proximity and take the trouble in later as long as they can consume whatever they need and not clean it up - ever. Either their younger or older they have that special quality that makes you think of a brother, if you are of the different sex beware because they will rat you out before they do their own kind! So what makes them bang your head? They do all of the above, yes their is such a thing as a male pms-ing, but on a worser scale.

22

Mar

Look into my eyes , can you see it ?
Its killing me , how can you miss it ?
Look again , can you see it now ?
Of course you can , but you’ll help me how ?

You wont , cuz you can only see it deep , deep down .
With my smile disguise , you think it’ll never be found .
You just dont care enough to dig a little deeper .
Soon , you will see my hurt , as I only get weaker .

But , for now , your blind to see ,
I’ll fake a smile , and happy i’ll seem .
Once im gone , you wont feel the same .
You’ll suddenly know you saw my pain .

You saw it there , in my eyes .
Now you wish , you saw through my lies .
But its much too late , im broken and scarred .
Forever sad , with a shattered heart .

Calm down now , dont you cry .
You never cared , just watched my die .
So keep doing the same , cuz my death awaits .
Im done with hurt , I found my escape .

anonymous

07

Mar

Watch then Act

06

Mar

This is the one song everyone
would like to learn: the song
that is irresistible:

the song that forces men
to leap overboard in squadrons
even though they see beached skulls

the song nobody knows
because anyone who had heard it
is dead, and the others can’t remember.
Shall I tell you the secret
and if I do, will you get me
out of this bird suit?
I don’t enjoy it here
squatting on this island
looking picturesque and mythical
with these two feathery maniacs,
I don’t enjoy singing
this trio, fatal and valuable.

I will tell the secret to you,
to you, only to you.
Come closer. This song

is a cry for help: Help me!
Only you, only you can,
you are unique

at last. Alas
it is a boring song
but it works every time.

Siren Song - Margaret Atwood

The moment when, after many years
of hard work and a long voyage
you stand in the centre of your room,
house, half-acre, square mile, island, country,
knowing at last how you got there,
and say, I own this,

is the same moment when the trees unloose
their soft arms from around you,
the birds take back their language,
the cliffs fissure and collapse,
the air moves back from you like a wave
and you can’t breathe.

No, they whisper. You own nothing.
You were a visitor, time after time
climbing the hill, planting the flag, proclaiming.
We never belonged to you.
You never found us.
It was always the other way round.

Margaret Atwood

There is only one basic human right, the right to do as you damn well please. And with it comes the only basic human duty, the duty to take the consequences.

04

Feb

Screencaps and life.: Spoiler? Might be... for some people only, though.

pinaykyaa:

Okay. What the fuck.. I am crying while typing this. Why?!

Okay, I know Jiraiya’s gonna die. Duh.. I’m a Tumblr user, and almost everyone I follow is an anime-related blog. Of course they’re gonna spoil something even if they don’t mean to, ya know.. I even do that myself when I screepcap the…

I’m in the middle
which line should I cross?
either side will change my life
both harsh, both splitting
I am a coward for not speaking up
but what side will i speak up for?
always the same subject
but sometimes between two different people
I’m in the middle
stuck in the middle
probably never going to leave the middle
because I’m the coward
never wanting to be hated
never wanting to be scrutinized
buried in the storm
that never ends
I’m in the middle
ME
I’m losing my mind in this dungeon
with weights that bring me to the earth
where I’ll never see the bright sun
never being able to escape, to run
ME
As I move from place to place
I learn something different
but like the wind I only make a small dent
As I move from place to place
everybody forgets my face
ME
Too much time to think
to little time to be
i cant sort this out
all these things strewn around me
clogging my head full of the past
…The future…. But not the present
I’m trying to think about everything at once
And I forget about whats happening in front of me
Lifes passing me by while I try to understand it all
its unstoppable… its passing me by… no time to put my feet up
I’m searching and leaping not knowing what i want
its dragging me down… leaving me behind…
ME
she hides behind her apathetic mask while she tries to understand the confusion inside.. why no pain? No remorse? Where did the days go when laughter came easy and love overflowed her heart? Caring for others becomes harder while being nice starts to get annoying. When will she burst? Anger boils over showing a soul of blue fire burning her up. Now she only knows anger, depression and fake smiles.
ME
She walks with no stumble in her steps while her world crumbles around her… As she walks they glare at her with envy or pity….because she shows no emotion at all. How does she control the pain? Does she even know what emotion means? She walks with no stumble in her steps only showing her apathy as she walks through chaos. She is known as the emotionless monster, nothing makes her fall… Until the day she knows what pain is…..
ME

30

Jan

megameanie:

Some college stuff I’ve been working on..